Days like this make me never want to be here,like sometimes I wish I can just erase everything that’s going on and be happy……..I want to be happy and be with someone who makes me happy and does things for me like I do for him,.i want someone who I can just be myself around and not have to worry about having my hair and make up done . Someone who can just cuddle and watch movies all day just cause that’s what I would want to do for that day,. Not make me do something that I don’t want to do just cause that’s what they want to do,. I want someone who I can spend the rest of my life with……… That’s what I thought that had but I don’t really know anything anymore an I’m confused and scares the crap out of me,. Days like this make me Wish that I wasn’t alive,. Cause I can’t handle this on my own anymore and I feel like I get no emotional or like mental support from anyone and I really have never had much of that threw my life and it just makes me more upset then I was before…….. I just need to know how to deal with being alone and being happy,. I really really do